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"The Spirit Manifesteth Truth": Angels, Aliens, and Apostles

10/17/2024

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"Will You Accept a Collect Call from Jupiter?"

On a cold Saturday night back in November 1977, a television broadcasting service in southern England intercepted a transmission from extraterrestrials.

At 5:10 p.m. local time, families watching TV in their living rooms received quite a shock when the news program was interrupted by a strange voice delivering an out-of-this-world message.

It lasted six minutes. 

The voice claimed to be a group of galactic emissaries who identified themselves simply as "Vrillon."

The panicked staffers at the television station had no idea what was going on.  They scrambled to restore service.  Afterwards, when things had returned to normal, the regulators conducted a lengthy investigation into the breach.

To this day no one knows what really happened.  Was it a prank?  Had someone hacked into the television signal?  Or had E.T. finally phoned?

As one of history's minor unresolved mysteries, "it was ambiguous enough that there's still this glimmer of possibility, no matter how tiny, that the whole thing was, and is, somehow real," said author John Reppion.

Perhaps we'll never know the truth about the Vrillon hoax (or was it?).

But it actually doesn't matter whether the message came from aliens or a bunch of goofballs at the local pub having a bit of fun.  The source is inconsequential because ― as I've said many times ― it is not the messenger that matters, but the message.

The speaker's identity ― and a person's title, priesthood office, authority, and credentials ― are irrelevant.  The only thing that matters is whether they speak the truth of God.  For truth is independent; it doesn't matter whose lips it falls from. 

God speaks through many mouths.  Whether a message is delivered by angels or aliens (is there a difference?), it doesn't matter in the end.

All that matters is whether we can tell if something bears the Spirit of God or not (see D&C 84:45-46).
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False Spirits

It's funny that everyone has their handshake ready and primed for the devil (D&C 129:7), when nearly all of the devil's deception occurs through ordinary mortals.

I believe in the general goodness of humanity, so I don't think people are out there trying to deceive us (for the most part).

Rather, the deceivers appear to be duped themselves (this is why they're so convincing).

Joseph Smith taught:

"Nothing is a greater injury to the children of men than to be under the influence of a false spirit when they think they have the Spirit of God."

(Teachings of the Prophet Joseph Smith, p. 205)

In other words, wolves in sheep's clothing almost always believe they are sheep!  It does absolutely no good trying to convince the wolves they are wolves, when they're convinced they're mutton.

​     False prophets
         believe,
     pretenders are
         sincere─

     The best way
         to deceive
     is to make it
         your career.


("Beware")

I am not immune myself; I have to constantly perform self-checks to see if I am channeling a false spirit as I write this blog.

What spiritual energies are piggybacking on my words?  Is it the spirit of love and mercy and humility ― or is it the spirit of condemnation and fear and coercion?

Listening to General Conference is an excellent exercise to hone our spiritual senses: ask yourself, is the speaker inspired by a divine or demonic spirit?

While listening to many Conference talks, I've noticed a sort of negative spiritual energy creep into my spirit like a puff of second-hand smoke.

It is like experiencing ravening wolves (Matt. 7:15) eating away at my peace.

My spiritual Geiger counter goes crazy when leaders preach the commandments of men mingled with scripture.

A negative spiritual orientation invariably fails to "edify."

   And that which doth not
   edify is not of God,
   and is darkness.


(D&C 50:23)

What does it mean to edify?  "To enlighten; uplift."

As eagles know, there cannot be 'lift' without wind; we cannot edify without the Spirit of God.
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"A Test, A Test is Coming"

The things I have to say in this post are a bit tough for me because I try to be a positive person; I try to focus on that which is "virtuous, lovely, of good report and praiseworthy."

But the prognosis isn't looking good.  L
ast night, wanting to keep an open mind, I decided to reread the Conference talks by the First Presidency and Twelve from the October 2024 General Conference on my way home from work on the train.

I decided to read them in the best possible light, with fresh eyes.  
Who knows, I thought, maybe I've been overly sensitive.  Maybe I just need to read them in a gentler spirit.

Well, it was interesting.  Silencing my inner-critic, I found much that was laudable in them; they quoted a lot of scriptures (I liked that) and said some good things.  (Of course, the same could be said of any mainstream Christian denomination.)

But as I read between the lines, sensing the subtext of what was being said ― and what was being implied ― something was clearly "off."

Because I found the spiritual subtext of General Conference to be, overall, quite negative.  Considering Christ is so positive, and following Him is so hopeful, isn't that surprising?

Praying for the gift of discernment, I began to see that the messages were laced with a subtle spirit of fear (a spiritual predator):

"Don't depart the covenant path.  Pity those who have.  Shame.  Follow the Brethren.  You need the Church.  TNT.  Jesus something, Jesus something.  You're wrong to doubt.  Keep it simple.  Pay tithing, it's permanent.  Covenants.  Our authority.  Jesus something, Jesus something."

Now, remember, Paul said God has "NOT given us the spirit of fear" (2 Tim. 1:7).  So whose spirit were these messages channeling?


I arrived home feeling heavy.  It was as if I had walked through the perfume counter at Macy's at the Mall; the disquiet lingered on my spiritual sleeves.  I wanted to undress and get clean, to feel light again.

I sniffed my spirit.  I asked, "Do you feel 'edified' and 'enlightened?'  (No.)  Do you feel greater confidence in Christ?  (No.)  Do you feel enriched by the possibilities of faith? (No.)"

Instead, the messages had left me feeling more spiritually insecure.

I tasted the fruit; I did not feel nourished by the good word of God because the energetic quality of the preaching was translated by my soul as:

"Now you better double-down on that checklist they've given you, if you know what's good for you.  You're doing a crummy job.  Maybe you can get some brownie-points by going to the temple this week.  Yes, that will make you feel better.  But you know it'll never be enough."

Perhaps I'm an anomaly.  But I wondered why General Conference had left me feeling so . . . wanting.
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Whom Shall We Trust?

I do not expect the things I write to have any impact upon the ​institution of the Church.  I do not write letters to the Brethren.  I support all that is godly in their efforts to lead.

My purpose in writing this blog is to reach out to the one, to the lonely member who is searching for something more.  To connect with other weary lambs who wish to follow faith and flee the spiritual captivity of fear.  (And also, to go on the record so the angels may know where I stand; I will need witnesses at the last day!)

I want to suggest that Church has become quite negative; it is drawing much strength from darkness.  Negativity is extremely powerful, for it sticks to our spirit like bubblegum on the bottom of our shoe.

The spirit of fear gains traction because it is the polar opposite of the spirit of love, and exerts a similar magnetic pull as love (but in the opposite direction).

Love unites; fear separates.  As the Church continues its retrenchment, we will continue to experience greater spiritual disassociation.  A recent example of this was President Nelson's message:

"Never take counsel from those who do not believe. Seek guidance from voices you can trust—from prophets, seers, and revelators and from the whisperings of the Holy Ghost, who 'will show unto you all things what ye should do.'"

(President Nelson, "Think Celestial!" October 2023 General Conference)

Now, we might wonder, is this true? Is this from God? How do we tell whether this message from President Nelson was of "celestial" origin?

Well, it's easy; by its fruit!  Just look at the spiritual energy these words produce.  Does the spirit in them empower us, or enervate us?

Does it create doubt in the minds of the listeners?  Does it lead to spiritual separation?  Does it divide believers vs. nonbelievers in a false dichotomy?

Does it bolster the trustworthiness of the Brethren and discredit those who do not believe as they do?

Does it perform grammatical gymnastics by inserting "prophets, seers, and revelators" into the same category as the Holy Ghost, whom Nephi said would 'show us all things we should do?'

Does the message lead to greater spiritual independence and autonomy, or does it suggest greater dependence upon leadership?

Does it make you feel closer to God, or does it make you feel the need to stick closer to the Brethren?

Does it produce the "peace of God, which passeth all understanding" (Phil. 4:7), or does it prey upon your unease?

Does it make you trust more in your spiritual gifts given by God, or does it make you think you need validation from external sources and presiding authorities?

Results Are In: This message bears the telltale imprint of fear.  If we follow the tracks, we'll find it propagates a negative spiritual orientation.  It promotes a closed mindset that is contrary to the gospel of Christ.  Members who heed this spirit are likely to become more judgmental, suspicious, and prideful.
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My Bookshelves Would Shock You

If you browsed my bookshelves at home, you'd wonder what kind of lunatic lives there.  For I have a curious mind and want to learn about everything; there is nothing "off limits."

On the evening of September 7, 2024 I was reading in my basement study and felt to pray.  I asked the Lord if I was wandering in strange roads.  I sought direction and, if necessary, correction.

God answered and taught me by His spirit:

"My son, anything that sparks your spirit, that expands your mind to inquire in new directions, to entertain new ideas and possibilities, is good: for these things whet your faith; they awaken you to aspects of Me you have not yet considered.  Whatever is not needful shall fall away.  Face me, and it is well."

After hearing this, I recalled the Pseudepigrapha-Principle found in D&C 91:
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Verily, thus saith the Lord unto you concerning the Apocrypha—There are many things contained therein that are true, and it is mostly translated correctly;

There are many things contained therein that are not true, which are interpolations by the hands of men.

Therefore, whoso readeth it, let him understand, for the Spirit manifesteth truth;

And whoso is enlightened by the Spirit shall obtain benefit therefrom.


(D&C 91:1-2,4-5)

But some people don't trust our ability to discern; they would prefer we read from an approved booklist and stay on solid ground.

They fear we'll go astray without their paternalistic hand ― and their fear leads them to want to control our behavior (for our own good, of course).  This is the rationale for the "commandments of men" that grieve the Spirit.  (As they say, 'The road to hell is paved with good intentions.')

Going to Church lately has been like putting on a spiritual strait-jacket.  Of course, as an adult, no one can physically make us do anything.  So what kind of "control" does the Church have?

Look at the means it employs to get members to pay tithing:

   (1) Social mechanisms of control (such as temple recommends if you want to attend your daughter's temple sealing; tithing declaration; calling leadership from top tithe payers, etc.); and

   (2) Spiritual forms of manipulation (gaslighting about what Malachi actually said regarding God's Storehouse; characterizing the current practice as God's will even though it violates His law; promising blessings to full-tithe payers, etc.).

But I have never found social and spiritual 'control mechanisms' to produce a mighty change of heart.  Only faith can do that (and these mechanisms are toxic to faith).

For the 'faith of fear' does not appeal to me.  Why would we fear faith?

That is the underlying reason we have a sterile culture of obedience and conformity: the leaders fear faith because faith cannot be controlled!  Faith throws the Handbook out the window and says, "It's all good; God and I have got this."
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The Ideology of Fear

According to the National Academy of Sciences, "Religious fundamentalism is a way of thinking and behaving characterized by a rigid adherence to religious doctrines that are seen as absolute and inerrant. It’s been linked to various cognitive traits such as authoritarianism, resistance to doubt, and a lower complexity of thought."

​Jesus (and Joseph Smith) chose faith over fundamentalism. When ideologies of fear grip a religion (as they have ours), we will find many wounds, many scars. We will find pools of blood (D&C 84:75).

The Church's fear-based approach to managing its members leads to error and real harm ― it reminds me of the spirit of the Inquisition.

The problem with ideologues is they focus on heresy, apostasy, blasphemy and witchcraft ― instead of, you know, all the things Jesus taught!

Ideologues fence the flock rather than freeing them.

Ideologues care more about the card you carry than the cross you carry; they demand loyalty over truth.

But the tragedy of an inquisitional spirit (such as we saw recently in President Oak's training on increasing excommunication membership councils) is that it produces oppression; it leads to persecution.

Now there was a strict law. . .
that there should be no
persecution among
themselves.


(Alma 1:21; see also, Mosiah 27:3-5)

The worst forms of persecution in the Church descend from the oppressive policies and practices that produce spiritual deflation and captivity (Alma called these the "chains of hell" in Alma 12:11).

What happens to a Church when its ranks become filled with spiritual Red Guards, who can't stone sinners anymore? What other outlet do they have to persecute the humble followers of Christ?

Just ask yourself how a million members went along with the old Church doctrine that Blacks couldn't hold the priesthood. I declare this practice was never sanctioned by God and was, in fact, advanced by evil spirits who deceived Church leaders.

These same negative spiritual entities are alive and well, and are actively seeking to deceive us today through the same spirit of fear, judgment, control, corporatism, and spiritual elitism.

This is how the Great and Spacious Building is built! Through seducing the faithful by getting them to imbibe the ideologies of fear and inequality.

Our spiritual senses should beep wildly when the Church enacts policies and practices that are antithetical to Christ's word and that quench His Spirit.

I wasn't alive back when the Black Ban was in place, but I was alive in 2015 when the Church refused to baptize children of gay parents. I spoke out in Elders Quorum and used the Standard Works to show numerous fatal flaws to the Policy of Exclusion.

I could have shown a thousand, and it wouldn't have mattered ― for the minds of the members were enthralled (psychologically conditioned) to follow the prophet (not God) at all costs, even if it was wrong. They said it was not our place to question.

This same spirit led the members of the Church in southern Utah to follow their Stake President, Isaac C. Haight, in 1857, to massacre 120 men, women and children at Mountain Meadows.

Is it any wonder God calls our creeds an "abomination" (JS-H 1:19)?

Ideologies are the antithesis of faith, reassuring us we're on God's good side when, in fact, we're on the side of our ideologies. And thus it was that Elder Boyd K. Packer declared a spiritual Blitzkrieg against feminists, intellectuals, and homosexuals. The Church has still not recovered from his musket fire.

And thus the devil laughs; all he needs to do to halt our progression is to transform Christ's curious little children into soldiers of an ideological construct ― a faith system, a political party, a prejudice ― that makes them feel justified, correct, virtuous, chosen and better than others based on their party affiliation.  This is the evil spirit of Sectarianism I have been blowing the horn about.

While our leaders were doing damage control after Obergefell v. Hodges, trying to keep this house of cards from crumbling, I went to the Lord and sought wisdom (James 1:5) on marriage ― for I tire of doctrinal answers born from the dead law of Leviticus, when we live in the Living Dispensation of the Fullness of Times.

I asked God what can be done for our gay brothers and sisters? While the Church's lawyers were reviewing the Policy of Exclusion, I cried out to God and the windows of heaven burst open as if a dam had ruptured; a flood of truth and light and understanding poured forth.

Where are our revelators? What are our seers doing? We have made ideologues our revelators; we have politicos as prophets. Truly did Isaiah see our day when he said:

This is a rebellious people. . .
which say to the seers,
See not; and to the prophets,
Prophesy not unto us
right things; but speak
unto us smooth things,
prophesy deceits.

Wherefore thus saith
the Holy One of Israel:
Because ye despise
this word,
and trust in oppression
and perverseness,
[then] stay thereon.


(Isaiah 30:9-12)
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Hope Remains

But shall we fight fire with fire?  No, we shall not.  Shall we resist evil?  No, that is not the way Babylon is overcome (Matt. 5:39).

We shall shine a light into the darkness; we shall comfort one another and make each other's burden light; we shall rejoice in Christ even if His cross leaves splinters in our hearts, weeping for Jerusalem and her daughters.

I can relate to Nephi's lament:

But I, Nephi, have written what I have written, and I esteem it as of great worth, and especially unto my people.

For I pray continually for them by day, and mine eyes water my pillow by night, because of them; and I cry unto my God in faith, and I know that he will hear my cry.


(2 Nephi 33:3-4)

I leave you with my love; may we rise from our fears; may we soar upon the wings of faith as eagles; may we blaze a trail through the mists and mockery, through the tempests and temptations, and be found at the last day among Christ's jewels.  Amen.
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20 Comments
Godot
10/18/2024 08:56:28 pm

I laughed out loud several times while reading this post. I’ve certainly missed your prose.

Your observations on fear and love are of course spot on. The fallout of either speaks for itself. Personally, I’ve found that it’s only love that truly changes anything for the better. And yet we’re still, “lookin’ for love in all the wrong places, Lookin' for love in too many faces, Searchin' their eyes, lookin' for traces, Of what I'm dreamin' of. . .” This old tune definitely comes to mind as I read your words about “inspired” General Conference talks and that trusty-Rusty covenant path.

I like your thought about the message, “Never take counsel from those who do not believe. Seek guidance from voices you can trust—from prophets, seers, and revelators. . .” Those words didn’t age well from the moment they were penned. This kind of “counsel” leaves us floundering each time the goalposts move - yet again. If only, “But the prophet said so!” were an acceptable comeback to, ‘depart from me, I never knew you.’ And here we can apply your words again though in another context, “That is the underlying reason we have a sterile culture of obedience and conformity.”

Your words on religious fundamentalism surprised me. I was thinking one thing but the words went elsewhere. I’d never before read the definition posted, but I recognize it now as another valuable facet of a perhaps more complete description. I think this area of study should be relevant to all of us.

“The problem with ideologues is they focus on heresy, apostasy, blasphemy and witchcraft. . .” We could find much less extreme examples of ideology in each of our own lives, making these words more individually relevant than, ‘those crazy people over there. . .’ However, perhaps your more nuanced approach is more prudent.

“Ideologies are the antithesis of faith, reassuring us we're on God's good side when, in fact, we're on the side of our ideologies.” This statement, when applied individually, really hits home. I also loved, “. . . transform Christ's curious little children into soldiers of an ideological construct ― a faith system, a political party, a prejudice ― that makes them feel justified, correct, virtuous, chosen and special.” Ouch. As I pluck out the thorns that statement leaves, may the putrid ideologies go with. Well spoken.

I would posit that ideologies are the antithesis of thought, forget faith for a moment. To steal your straight jacket imagery, how can anyone have a coherent and logical thought while so tied up in a preponderance of embedded man-made ideological knots? We all once rationalized why polygamy or priesthood bans were the way of “The Lord” (also known as Tom Riddle), at least until they weren’t. But take the ideology away - that circular reasoning bolstered by perceived divine influence - and suddenly there is no leg to stand on for either dogma. ‘Oh, but God’s ways are not mans’ ways, we just don’t understand. . .’ Well, we can at least understand mans’ ways. And those ways never fail to drive home just how much hopeum ideologies seem to provide when we are trying to excuse bad behavior.

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Tim Merrill
10/21/2024 04:31:36 pm

GODOT, you are right, of course: while I was focused on faith and fear, we could extend the same reasoning to ideology's effect on THOUGHT itself. Your comments helped me see how widely this goes.

As I zoom out, going high-level, perhaps it all comes down to whether our belief systems / religions / politics / thoughts all lead to unity or separation. The point I was trying to make is that a negative spiritual orientation leads to separation.

But as I've pondered your comments, I have had to face myself in the mirror -- what ideologies do I still harbor? What fixations and idols do I cling to? At what point does my faith in Christ harden into an unquestioning creed? The difference is between fire and ash.

Thank you, as always, for your insights. You are an uncommon soul, whose words move as if doing a jig. May the Lord bless you, Tim

"The tears of the world are a constant quantity. For each one who begins to weep, somewhere else another stops."

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D Majors
10/19/2024 06:27:57 am

Thank you for writing this. This testimony really points out how critical cognitive dissonance is to members of the Church.

Fortunately, I have reached a level in my development where I realized God doesn't utilize cognitive dissonance to maintain his grip on me.

Once I realized this, that I no longer had to accept scripture mingled with the philosophies of men, I truly came to understand what C.S. Lewis was teaching in his book the Great Divorce. And, my assent up the mountain began.

Modern day truth, as you said, can be spoken by anyone.

“Each of us has to face the matter — either the Church is true, or it is a fraud. There is no middle ground. It is the church and kingdom of God, or it is nothing.”

—President Gordon B. Hinckley

One can stay in the Grey Town, or one can go to the foothills to begin thier assent. There will be a lot of demons trying to keep their chains on us. However, once we give up the the dissonance of of trying to reach God through those trying to keep us under their spell, then the amazing things happen.

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Tim Merrill
10/21/2024 04:53:28 pm

D MAJORS, I like how you mentioned the Grey Town, as if life -- having lost its hue -- had became a bleak dreamscape for those under the spell of spiritual Ambien.

But as you know, it is not always easy to exchange our cognitive dissonance for the clawing "demons trying to keep their chains on us." I keep expecting some day, some month, some year . . . that things will get easier. Does it? Over the weekend I read the book, "The Boy, the Mole, the Fox, and the Horse," and at one point the four friends stop and gaze out at the valley below and the horizon that seems impossibly far away, and the boy cries out, despairing, "Look how far we have go!" And the horse replies, "Yes, but remember how far we've come."

Thank you for the kind spirit you bring to this space, I always appreciate it. While having never met, I look forward to the day we can share a smore over the campfire, with tall tales and merry camp songs, with C.S. Lewis and all the others who have ascended the mountain. Yours ever, Tim

"There are only two kinds of people in the end: those who say to God, 'Thy will be done,' and those to whom God says, in the end, 'Thy will be done.' All that are in hell, choose it." - C.S. Lewis.

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Ruth
10/19/2024 10:04:24 am

“Jesus something….Jesus something…” laughing out loud!!

“ Ideologues fence the flock rather than freeing them.

Ideologues care more about the card you carry than the cross you carry; they demand loyalty over truth.”

Brilliantly written!!! All of it.

Sincere question that I’m wondering continually. Why stay in the church then? For me, I don’t want my kids to know the Jesus the church presents. But what say you?

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Tim Merrill
10/22/2024 11:46:38 am

RUTH, you've asked a great question (a difficult question): "Why stay in the Church then?" This is something I have given much thought; I've spent years pondering the sedimentary layers of it. As you've mentioned, we have children to consider. "Think of the children!"

I can boil down my reasons for maintaining activity in the Church at this time to two things.

(1) Being a missionary to those in the Church (after all, we speak the language fluently); and

(2) Wanting to provide a bridge of understanding to my family, many of whom are still fully-committed to the Covenant Path paradigm.

It's odd thinking of serving a mission to the members of your ward -- not as an outsider but (as Richard Rohr calls it) from "the edge of inside."

Rohr said, "There are a few prophets who can love their church, their country, or their company so much that they see it clearly and deeply and ARE FREE TO CRITICIZE IT. But there’s a difference when critique comes from anger and rebellion and spite, and when it comes from love."

Even though I'm a poor nursemaid, I want to lift up the hands which hang down and strength the feeble knees I find at Church.

In 2018 I was at my wits end: I really have a hard time with the hypocrisy and leader-worship at Church (no joking, on Sunday the High Councilor spoke in Sacrament Meeting and said, "I've been asked to speak on how the teachings of President Nelson have changed my life.").

At home I cried out, telling God to find someone more patient and long-suffering, because the priestcraft drove me wild.
I prayed over your exact question: should I leave the Church? Why is the Lord allowing such nonsense? What would be best for my family? Is the Church's influence in my children's life a net-positive or a net-negative?

The Lord spoke to me, saying, "The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints is full of my children who must be called, and then chosen, in order to bring them into fellowship with my Church."

This answer surprised me because of its artistic ambiguity; as I pondered it, my paradigm shifted. I realized the thing the Lord cares about is NOT the organization/institution, but the children in it. He is very invested in the lambs scattered among the membership. He is their Shepherd (and this could be said of those in every church, denomination, and religion across the world: the Lord's eyes are things globally).

So how can I accomplish the most good for those inside the Church? I've talked to my wife about what it would look like to leave it: we could be among those who are preparing shelters for the fleeing flock as the times of the gentiles turn and the work of the Father commences.

If I were a bachelor, I probably would have chosen to be among the vanguard. I like to blaze new trails. But as a father, husband, son, and brother, I feel a sense of stewardship that makes me want to put myself last in line ("for some must push and some must pull").

I currently seek to pull my loved ones forward as much as they'll allow, but I do not want to pull so hard the cord breaks. And so I try to be content in the rearguard, at the back of the wagon train.

For the time being, at home, I read the scriptures with my children and wife every morning and we try to foster an environment of living faith. But even this morning as I dropped off my teenager at early morning seminary, they said to me, channeling the messages they hear at Church and in General Conference, "Dad, I really want to go to the temple." How do I teach my children that God is not found in buildings made of stone, but in the tabernacles of His children, who ARE the "habitation of God":

"In whom ye also are builded together for an habitation of God through the Spirit" (Eph. 2:22).

And so I pray that the Lord will bless my path as I bring up the rearguard, trying to help the stragglers along. I am grateful for the boundless grace that is shown towards our mortal exercise of agency. I try to remember that life is about growth, not rightness (and growth can occur under suboptimal conditions).

By way of comparison, compare our relationship to the Church to marriage. We're told to "cleave" unto our spouses; and yet Jesus taught that anyone who will not leave father, mother, husband, wife, for His sake, is not worthy of Him (Luke 14:26).

And yet Paul taught that there is wisdom in staying yoked to an unbelieving partner. What?? Maybe the LDS Church can be compared to an "unbelieving husband." If we apply Paul's words to it: "And the woman which hath an husband that believeth not, and if he be pleased to dwell with her, let her not leave him. For the unbelieving husband is sanctified by the wife" (1 Cor. 7:12-14).

On the other hand, Paul tells us to be wise and to let them go if they want to go: "But if the unbelieving depart, let him depart, [for] God hath called us to peace" (1 Cor. 7:15).

The key is found, I think, in verse 17. I firmly believe Paul was inspired when he taught the pri

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Tim Merrill
10/22/2024 11:57:30 am

PART 2:

Okay, who knew there was a character limit to these comments? I just found out! Let me retype what I had posted at the end:

The key is found, I think, in verse 17. I firmly believe Paul was inspired when he taught the principal of individual adaptation over universal application:

"But as the Lord hath called every one, so let him walk" (1 Cor. 7:17).

This is the reason I fully support you and your journey, as well as those who have chosen to remain -- because the Iron Rod has many branches, and they all lead to the Tree, where we may share fully in the love of God, as one.

I wrote once (April 21, 2022 blog, Part 23 of "Lord, to whom shall we go?") the following, with this very question in mind:

"You can imagine my surprise witnessing over the years the ball retreating. This isn't right, I thought! The ball is moving in the wrong direction. What's going on?

"And of course I came to realize (as many of you have) that I had been deceived and distracted by the game being played on the field ― which was not the real game at all.

"I saw that the Lord was active in the bleachers, at the concession booth, in the parking lot. The Lord tried getting the attention of the players but they were too invested in the game. So the Lord was calling the destitute and downtrodden, the poor and marginalized to join him in playing a very different sort of game.

"Well, can you believe it? All my life I had been taught to keep my eyes on the quarterback (i.e., the Prophet] and to follow his playbook. And gradually my eyes were opened, and I realized that the Lord didn't have a stake in which team won or in who took home the championship trophy.

"Instead, Christ was busy at work among those who hadn't even made the team ― the weak and simple things of the earth ― who didn't wear jerseys and who don't have letterman jackets.

"Then I saw that Satan was refereeing the field (how did I not see that before?), throwing flags and stirring up the players and the crowd. In their contentious rivalries, the fans in the stands cheered and cursed depending on who was winning.

"Satan worked to ensure that the game would go into double overtime. While everyone was caught up in the thrill of the competition, they failed to notice that one-by-one, the Lord was escorting a few here and few there away from the stadium."

Whatever shape the horizon takes in your spiritual eye, chase it.
Whatever spiritual steed the Savior has placed you upon, ride it like the wind. And may we all meet, by and by, at the place of gathering where Christ dwells (3 Nephi 21:25).

Much love, Tim

GCNESLO
10/19/2024 04:56:41 pm

What a conundrum…only trust prophets who don’t prophesy, seers who don’t see, and revelators who don’t reveal anything.

And then we are cautioned to be extremely careful about the whispering of the Holy Ghost, because, as Bro Renland said in October 2022 conference, “The promise of personal revelation through the Holy Ghost is awe-inspiring, much like an airplane in flight. And like airplane pilots, we need to understand the framework within which the Holy Ghost functions to provide personal revelation. When we operate within the framework, the Holy Ghost can unleash astonishing insight, direction, and comfort. Outside of that framework, no matter our brilliance or talent, we can be deceived and crash and burn...we receive personal revelation only within OUR purview and not within the prerogative of others. In other words, we take off and land in OUR appointed runway…Doctrine, commandments, and revelations for the Church are the prerogative of the living prophet, who receives them from the Lord Jesus Christ. That is THE PROPHET’S runway.”

And yet I recall the Prophet Joseph saying something to the effect that God is willing to reveal to any member the same things He had revealed to Joseph.

With the clear misuse of tithing funds by the 1st Presidency, the Presiding Bishopric and Ensign Peak (which if an individual member had done the same exact thing would have required, at a minimum the convening of a membership council), every time I hear someone in church quote Malachi 3:10 about bringing tithes into the storehouse, I want to stand up and shout, “What about Malachi 2:1, 8 “And now, O ye priests, this commandment is for you…ye have caused many to stumble at the law; ye have corrupted the covenant…”.

In the end, though, what really matters is identified in 3 Nephi 27:14, “men (shall) be lifted up by the Father, to stand before me, to be judged of THEIR works, whether THEY be good or whether THEY be evil—“, what we have become while we are here on Earth. And I appreciate you always bringing us back to that view.

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Tim Merrill
10/22/2024 03:52:49 pm

GCNESLO, I am glad you've been reminding us of the Savior's teachings in 3 Nephi 27, which takes us to the heart of the gospel. I happened to read that chapter this morning with my family.

The part that stood out to me today was the fact the Savior says (twice!) that those who are cast into the fire shall not return. I keep wondering what exactly that means.

As I've studied President Nelson's teachings, there is so much that, on paper, is spot-on -- and then I compare the words to the works. There's this enormous gulf between our preaching of the gospel and the systems put in place by the Handbook. For example, President Nelson taught in the For the Strength of Youth magazine a terrific message on equality called "Happiness in Unity" -- and yet the structure of the Church replaces equality with hierarchy; actions speak louder than words.

I'm the proverbial kettle calling the pot black, and so whenever I say something critical about others, I try to turn the criticism towards myself and see if it applies. And yes, I'm as guilty as any. "O wretched man that I am!"

Thank you for returning us back to the good news -- your words both cut and cauterize as one who has learned the Healer's art. Thank you.

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Ryan J
10/21/2024 09:18:40 pm

“Where are our revelators? What are our seers doing? We have made ideologues our revelators; we have politicos as prophets. Truly did Isaiah see our day when he said:”

We have our regulators, our Sears (pun intended, books of plenty to sell, tickets, and passes. Last I checked no prophet in the scriptures charged for their inspired word, you can buy anything with money), we have profits, record breaking. All is well in Zion, if you stay on the covenant path, follow the manual, and do what your leaders say, and do not disagree with the president or his councilors. Oh don’t you dare read unapproved material.

2 Nephi 26
33 For none of these iniquities come of the Lord; for he doeth that which is good among the children of men; and he doeth nothing save it be plain unto the children of men; and he inviteth them all to come unto him and partake of his goodness; and he denieth none that come unto him, black and white, bond and free, male and female; and he remembereth the heathen; and all are alike unto God, both Jew and Gentile.

Once I started to stop making excuses for decisions made and would prove them with scripture, and to read the BofM as if it’s talking to me/us/ literally, I began to see more. I experienced a strong spiritual confirmation of…
24 Wherefore, the Lord commandeth you, when ye shall see these things come among you that ye shall awake to a sense of your awful situation, because of this secret combination which shall be among you; or wo be unto it, because of the blood of them who have been slain; for they cry from the dust for vengeance upon it, and also upon those who built it up.
The “Lord commandeth you”, to do what? To “awake to a sense of your awful situation.” How? Well to repent, and learn of all things and declare it to the world (D&C 88), and to “prove all things.”

God woke me up to my awful state, the state in which I and the world was/is in. That thought encompassed everything. When I declared what I felt to my wife, I cried, about my state/sins, our state, and the state which the estate was in. I realized I was cruising down a path of convince, an arm of flesh, and a fomo.

Yea, Isaiah, Nephi, Ether, Mormon, Moroni, etc. saw our day. For as Mormon said without confusion, “ 35 Behold, I speak unto you as if ye were present, and yet ye are not. But behold, Jesus Christ hath shown you unto me, and I know your doing.
36 And I know that ye do walk in the pride of your hearts; and there are none save a few only who do not lift themselves up in the pride of their hearts, unto the wearing of very fine apparel, unto envying, and strifes, and malice, and persecutions, and all manner of iniquities; and your churches, yea, even every one, have become polluted because of the pride of your hearts.” (Mormon 8).
My heart cannot unsee what I now see. His words are true and I cannot deny them.

The BofM truly has great direction of how to proceed with those persecuting those of the church of God and ones that follow Gods teachings. Now someone sinning and making mistakes needs help not persecution. Nephi wanted clarification on matters his father taught, and God gave it to him directly. Questioning is inspired by God. Now in Mathew 9 we read,
11 And when the Pharisees saw it, they said unto his disciples, Why eateth your Master with publicans and sinners?
12 But when Jesus heard that, he said unto them, They that be whole need not a physician, but they that are sick.
13 But go ye and learn what that meaneth, I will have mercy, and not sacrifice: for I am not come to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance.
And we are all sinners. Christ always hung around the “wrong crowd”, those seeking Him, humble to learn, those turned away by the “righteous.” Yes, kicking more out is the way to go. No, crying repentance is the way to go and finding the lost sheep. The Publican and the Pharisee just popped into my head.

But we need not be surprised, in D&C 39 We have learned by sad experience that it is the nature and disposition of almost all men, as soon as they get a little authority, as they suppose, they will immediately begin to exercise unrighteous dominion.
40 Hence many are called, but few are chosen.

The scriptures, since I’ve begun to accept they are talking to me/us, I’m less surprised at what’s going on and more amazed how wise and directional the scriptures truly are. Powerful witnesses and warnings, to those who will hear Him and accept they are the dust and in need of the Physician from above. I have much to learn and hopeful to be molded by the Potter.

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Tim Merrill
10/23/2024 01:24:57 pm

RYAN J, thank you for sharing a little bit of your spiritual awakening with us. Your experiences are relatable to me, having gone through something similar. As you said, the scriptures were instrumental in helping me to see through the fog and mists of manmade rules and commandments.

The Book of Mormon and New Testament were pivotal catalysts that got me questioning (and to a lesser extent the Doctrine and Covenants: I love the law of common consent and law of consecration, but those are merely applications of the higher laws of unity and love).

During my own period of questioning, I went through the typical phases of bewilderment and exhilaration, despair and enlightenment. But then something quite sinister took possession of me: anger! And I didn't like the way it made me feel. I was angry at the double standards, the double speak, the lying and hypocrisy, the mischaracterizations and sophistry that had ensnared me.

And being possessed of this spirit of anger, feeling hurt and betrayed, I wanted to "set things right." I began to blame. I wanted justice. I wanted equity and repentance at the highest levels of the Church.

Needless to say, this was not good for my emotional health or for my relationships. Being "awakened" led to me making a fool of myself more often than not.

And then, on April 8, 2019, as I drove home late one night around 10:00 p.m. from a meeting in Eureka, Utah (an old mining town that now hosts ghosts), I turned off the talk radio and poured out my frustrations to God. Through tears I laid out my case. Where was restitution for the light (and years) they had robbed me of?

My heart broke as I thought of the leaders I had loved and admired, like Spencer W. Kimball and Howard W. Hunter, who I knew were good men: how could they have been complicit in perpetuating a system within the Church that is unhallowed and hypocritical?

Why did they not do more to reform Nebuchadnezzar's head of gold? Why had they not made the thighs of brass to bend before the Lord? Had they not power to break the feet of iron and clay?

And the Spirit of the Lord washed over me as a sea breeze through an open window -- and while the Spirit did not condone in the least any of the Church's wrongdoing (and in fact I felt it was grieved at the ways we have gone astray), the voice of the Lord spoke clearly to me, "Be merciful."

I pulled off to the side of the country road. There was no traffic that late; and I began to offer a new prayer, and prayed for our leaders, the Brethren, as I have never prayed before -- that the Lord would be merciful to them, as I hoped He would be merciful to me. I felt a desire well up in me, and prayed the Lord would bless them, feeling nothing now but compassion and charity giving me utterance; I wished with my whole soul that God would take them by the hand and lead them from their error, as He had mine.

And in place of anger and bitterness I experienced a new spirit take possession of me, one of unity: as if the spirits of President Kimball and President Hunter had joined me, as if we formed a prayer circle -- and in that circle I experienced healing and wholeness, even as the Spirit manifested to me that the Lord had heard and accepted our prayer.

When I arrived home the Spirit had not departed; I went to my basement study and closed the door and continued to pray (the children in bed by then); the words poured out of me as a petition to the Lord. I begged Him to soften the hearts of those who lead the Church, as He had softened mine. I interceded with all the energy of my heart, pleading with the Lord to remove the stumbling blocks of Zion, that we might see beyond our vanity. And many other things did I pray.

And ever since that night, some five years ago, I can say that I feel charity towards our leaders (even if their actions sadden me) and wish them only success, because I know their influence stretches far, and I desire their ministries to bring light instead of darkness into the world.

I confess some days I still get discouraged (quite often, in fact). And yet I never forget that the Lord is Greater than all, and can bring beauty from ashes, and work good from the mess we make, and to not give up hope (Romans 8:28).

And so while I continue to sound a trumpet against wickedness in high places, I do it without anger. For beyond the grave there is a great work of reunification and restitution to be done. Lord willing, we shall be unifiers of the human family.

Ryan, I pray for you and your wife, that having awakened, you may help others to open their eyes to the Lord's infinite love and mercy. Love always, Tim

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Ryan J
10/23/2024 05:56:16 pm

From Eureka, God definitely has a sense of humor.
Thank you immensely for all you share. A beautiful experience with the Spirit of the Lord. I was angry for a while about things, until I dove more into scripture, but mostly saddened. I have zero desire to destroy the church/es. I simply want the truth so that I may help my family and others. I don’t want to do something counter to what the Lord wants. I think posted a couple months ago about writing up a large paper about all things Covid. I could have positioned myself to make money etc with it. I wasn’t interested. God instructed me to learn all I could and share. I can say it helped prevent a lot of people from the potential for deadly consequences. I’m eternally grateful to God for that experience. I feel the same way about the gospel. I want to know the truth so much I can help prevent the same outcome. Of course only as a servant, I can save no one, glory be to God!
I’ve always had the spirit of questioning, not for malicious purposes, but to understand, I truly want to know the truth. And as with Covid, if I loose friends and opportunities due to following and declaring the truth so be it, but sadden by the friends I lost.
Christ can truly mend all that is broken, and bring us to see our mistakes, confess/repent, and become a strong servant for Him. I’m grateful for how I was raised in the church, it did open my eyes to more, BofM etc…, What a blessing to have that book. Even when a leader is driving off coarse, as with the house of Israel, it will be restored, a restitution of all things. I tend to get a feeling of, “don’t be discouraged, there will be those that will listen, many will circle back after rejecting, and let Me worry about the timing and you have got to be patient ( I have made a fool of myself as well, got to work on my timing, well, His timing. I cannot run faster than I have strength).” Truly “ all things can be used for good for those that love God.”
Thank you and please do pray for us, I need all the help I can get, so many questions still.

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Ryan J
10/24/2024 09:39:37 am

I hope this post from the Isaiah Institute may add to and help our understanding. I definitely can relate to the dream and am hopeful of the outcome.

February 3, 2024
How much confusion from a discordant society, chaotic world, and political and ecclesiastical leadership do we need to wake us up? When Isaiah points out our wickedness and abominations, we say, “That can’t be us! We attend church.” Well, so did others, until the very hour of their destruction. “Let’s hit on the messenger!” Well, that would be Isaiah, and, ultimately, God.

Isaiah’s prophecy of “a path through the mighty waters” (Isaiah 43:16)—at Israel’s physical end-time exodus out of Babylon—applies also in a spiritual sense: “When you cross the waters, I will be with you; [when you traverse] the rivers, you shall not be overwhelmed. Though you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned; its flame shall not consume you” (Isaiah 43:2).

Isaiah says only righteous individuals will respond to God’s call to exit Babylon: “Hear me, you followers of righteousness, seekers of Jehovah: Look to the rock from which you were cut, to the quarry out of which you were hewn; look to Abraham your father, to Sarah who bore you. He was but one when I called him, but I blessed him by making him many” (Isaiah 51:1–2).

The Lord showed Joseph Smith in a dream how such individuals may rise above troubled waters. Though not a part of LDS scriptures, his dream’s symbolism seems to reflect a perilous trend in the church. However, it doesn’t suggest a reason to leave the church. Rather, it shows how—as prophesied—God may empower end-time persons over the elements to a translated state.

“Riverboat Dream” by Joseph Smith—History of the Church 6:194–195

I was standing on a peninsula, in the midst of a vast body of water where there appeared to be a large harbor or pier built out for boats to come to. I was surrounded by my friends, and while looking at this harbor I saw a steamboat approaching the harbor. There were bridges on the pier for persons to cross, and there came up a wind and drove the steamboat under one of the bridges and upset it.

I ran up to the boat, expecting the persons would all drown; and wishing to do something to assist them, I put my hand against the side of the boat, and with one surge I shoved it under the bridge and righted it up, and then told them to take care of themselves. But it was not long before I saw them starting out into the channel or main body of the water again. The storms were raging and the waters rough. I said to my friends that if they did not understand the signs of the times and the spirit of prophecy, they would be apt to be lost.

It was but a few moments after when we saw the waves break over the boat, and she soon foundered and went down with all on board. The storm and waters were still very rough; yet I told my friends around me that I believed I could stem those waves and that storm, and swim in the waters better than the steamboat did; at any rate I was determined to try it. But my friends laughed at me, and told me I could not stand at all, but would be drowned. The waters looked clear and beautiful, though exceedingly rough; and I said I believed I could swim, and I would try it anyhow. They said I would drown. I said I would have a frolic in the water first, if I did; and I drove off in the raging waves.

I had swam but a short distance when a towering wave overwhelmed me for a time; but I soon found myself on the top of it, and soon I met the second wave in the same way; and for a while I struggled hard to live in the midst of the storm and waves, and soon found I gained upon every wave, and skimmed the torrent better; and I soon had power to swim with my head out of water: so the waves did not break over me at all, and I found that I had swam a great distance; and in looking about, I saw my brother Samuel by my side.

I asked him how he liked it. He said, “First rate,” and I thought so too. I was soon enabled to swim with my head and shoulders out of water, and I could swim as fast as any steamboat. In a little time it became calm, and I could rush through the water, and only go in to my loins, and soon I only went in to my knees, and finally could tread on the top of the water, and went almost with the speed of an arrow. I said to Samuel, See how swift I can go! I thought it was great sport and pleasure to travel with such speed, and I awoke.

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Tim Merrill
10/24/2024 04:51:36 pm

Thanks Ryan; the Isaiah Institute has done a lot of good by shining a light on Isaiah's writings, I appreciate that community. And I love that dream! (The other dream I always think about is Joseph's "last dream" about the Barn and future of the Church. My reflection on it:)

https://www.owlofthedesert.com/the-barn.html

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L
10/24/2024 12:18:54 pm

Tim, I can only say amen. You have such a gift for bringing truth to light in a loving way. Thank you.

Years ago I asked the Lord to reveal to me the false traditions that filled my life. General Conference was first on His list to me! It still took years for me to give it up. In fact, He had to flat out tell me to give it up, and I still hesitated. False traditions of all types are powerful chains that bind us.

I have sought guidance on leaving the Church. I get so angry about some of the blatantly false teachings, but I’m still told “Not yet.” He still needs some of us with wide open eyes to stay in the church as a leavening agent, I suppose. He compared me to an undercover agent. I think he has a number of undercover agents in the church, we just don’t know each other. He will tell each of us, at the right time, when it’s time for us to leave.

Thanks for your writings. They give me hope.

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Tim Merrill
10/24/2024 05:22:38 pm

L, thank you for being leaven!

Your comment reminded me of the French Resistance led by Charles de Gaulle against the Vichy regime during WWII, and its underground that helped Jewish refugees escape.

Perhaps it is because I was a history major, but I carry this sense that our history is being written as we speak; the primary sources will be the record of our choices today. Generations yet unborn will study our day; how shall we be spoken of?

I once wrote the following for a friend once, and it captures this spirit of being undercover agents:

Squibs we be
you and me
but squibs can do
what others few
dare try--

So don’t cry
my squibbly-dear;
you and I
are blessed--
things may appear
not what they seem
but therein lies
the test.

Love, Tim

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Clark Burt
10/25/2024 05:55:43 am

I have read this post twice and the comments as they keep coming, and have been edified by all. The only thing I can add are a few questions: Is faith the remedy? If so, how do we obtain faith in Christ? Faith comes by hearing and hearing (His voice) in His words. Only by receiving the word of God, which makes the word of God the only remedy. It is Christ's words that will tell us ALL that we must do. You have given us a motivation of why we should FEAST upon His words.

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Tim Merrill
10/25/2024 03:35:47 pm

CLARK, thank you; this week it's been all about FEAST and yeast! As one of the "least of these," my heart has been filled.

I am grateful for the words you bring as a high priest of good things to come; I really felt fed from your blog this week on the Book of Mormon (https://fingerofgod.blogspot.com/2024/10/but-we-have-book-introduction.html). Your voice is as a bird of paradise whose song awakens us to His words, in whose call we hear His calling. So grateful! Tim

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MJ
10/28/2024 11:36:48 pm

Thank you dear brother ❤️ Your messages and comments have edified me and restored my hope.

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Tim Merrill
10/29/2024 04:15:24 pm

MJ, thank you; you've pointed us to the thing we all need: "hope." One of the best protections we have against negative spiritual entities is our brightness of hope.

I like how Paul compared hope to a "helmet" (1 Thess. 5:8).

A helmet is an armament of war, to be sure, and it protects our most important body part (the head) -- or in this case, our spiritual minds.

Just like we want our children to wear helmets while riding bikes on busy streets, the "helmet" of hope shields our minds from dark forces who want to drain our energy, siphoning away our strength, leaving us devitalized and discouraged.

I think the helmet of hope has at least three facets:

1. Hope in God
2. Hope in the future
3. Hope in humanity

I love how Paul said, immediately after mentioning the helmet, "For God hath NOT appointed us to wrath, but to obtain salvation by our Lord Jesus Christ" (1 Thess. 5:9).

I used to think of Hope as having rose-colored glasses; but now I realize Hope is having the gloves of a gardener who does not worry over the weeds and pests. Such things do not prevent the Gardener from cultivating the most beautiful roses -- and in fact, those weeds and pests only make the harvest that much more meaningful and miraculous when He presents the roses to His Beloved. Love, Tim

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